Still Alive.

Yes, I know my blog is dead.

But I'm not dead yet.

STILL SURVIVING MY INTERNSHIP!

18 MORE DAYS TO GO :)

Don't really have much to blog nowadays either, you wouldn't wanna know about my working life either. Hahaha! Let's hope that the Gucci Timepiece event this Wednesday would be interesting, so at least I can have something to write about :) 

Gonna see alot of people on Wednesday! Celestina would be attending too :) Also mdc artistes like Joanne Peh & Zhang Yao Dong. Maybe I'm able to snap a photo with them? ;) 

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If only Aachan or Yuko comes to Singapore,

I will fly to *SCAPE to see them ♥

IF ONLY...

It's my life.

Hmm, I think this hairstyle suits me. As long as I'm able to get rid of that teeny weeny bit of stubborn fats on my face, I will sweep all my hair to the side. Anyway I realised as long as my weight is below 50kg, I don't have to photoshop my face! HAHAHA SERIOUSLY :D just hope it continues to go down down down~ *constantly eating rabbit food everyday*

Having a skinny obsession isn't really a good thing. Yes, it would definitely change your looks & your life if you're willing to work hard for it. Seriously, when you look better, people who chose to ignore you in the past would start to talk to you out of the blue. Which is simply annoying, I would say. But again, behind that 'looks', there's so much of self-torture that would hurt you physically & mentally. 

BUT WELL, THIS IS LIFE. 

EVERYONE WANNA LOOK GOOD. 

SO WHAT TO DO?  .... SIGH

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I'm on iMac now & I don't know why recently it became super laggy -_- I think my laptop is 2897321 times faster than this antique here. Anyway, I found some super cute photos to share! HAHAHA CAN'T STOP LAUGHING :DDD

3 YEARS AGO....

My best friend :) When she could still see me. 

Jolly was 8 years old then :)

I guess her impression of me would still be this retarded looking face, haha! She used to be my camwhore kaki, but now she don't even know where to look at :( 

HAHAHA THIS PHOTO IS SUPER LAST WARNING! I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING AT JOLLY AHAHAHA SO CUTEEEEE :)

I'll always remember this ugliest fringe that I've had, 1 day before my birthday.

How horrible.

Okay, that's all. I'll continue to dig more classic photos & post it up to share next time. CAN'T WAIT FOR DINNER @ ASTONS TOMORROW!!! WOOHOO :D 

 With love ♥ , M.

Take a break

It's gonna be week 13 already!!!

5 more weeks to go & I'm done with Internship :)

Anyway, I went to watch Laddaland after work on Friday with my bitches <3 Midnight movie FTW! THE SOUND EFFECTS SCARE THE SHIT OUTTA ME. Fuck, my heart nearly died. I think it's worth my $7 tho! 2 full hours of a mind-fucking Thai horror film. Not bad not bad, do watch it! :)

I don't know why but I dare not go home alone after the movie (this is rather unusual & very NOT me), yeah yeah feelin' like a loser. HAHAHA! So 3 of us chilled at Starbucks from 3:30-6:30am :) Love talking to these 2 girls, we can talk about almost everything, 'cos we've got like nothing to hide from each other :)  So blessed to have them with me, seriously.

Spent my Saturday with my bed, sleeping like a pig for almost the entire day! I THINK I DESERVE A GOOOOOOD REST~ Work is killing me. Feeling rather weird, no gymming session this week :( Nvm, there's still next week.

Stepped on my weighing machine & was so glad to see that I lost weight :) I need to lose like 3kg more till I hit my ideal weight & just tone/maintain from there! Just gotta stick to my current diet plan, it makes me lose weight without losing my boobies & somehow made my boobs grew a cup :P

Shall share one of my secret weapon for losing weight ~

THIS IS AWESOME OKAY :) I just finished my 3rd pack today & went to get my 4th pack in the evening! It's available @ Fairprice-$9+ (can't seem to find it at Cold Storage :/) ~ Yes, it's rather pricey but I don't mind investing that amount of money every week for my daily breakfast! :) Yummeh~

Losing my sanity.

Almost 2 weeks have passed...

There's so much things running through my head.

Mainly family, work, relationship.

Family - My situation here is rather screwed up. Not as awesome as you thought it would be, seriously. I might have to work my ass off to get my own pocket money & all the shit. Fuck my life seriously, I shall not say much, too personal. It's just pretty fucked up.

Work - 6 more weeks to the end of internship, feeling very stressed (yes, that's working life i've got nothing to say seriously). I swear I wouldn't skip lesson or slack in class anymore. School is so much better, so you guys who are in school currently better appreciate what you have now!!! I can't wait to go back in semester 2, photoshop, illustrator & final cut pro wait for me <3 Oh & not forgetting my fav boys the cute, the handsome, the smart & the cool aka my fyp mates :))

Relationship - This one is also another fucked up one, although everything has ended. After this incident, I fear of being into a relationship. It's a damn scary thing, because you'll get emotional all the time, get paranoid every now & then, fearing that you will lose your bf/gf anytime & all these kind of shit. 

LIKE, WHY SUFFER? 

ISN'T LOVE SUPPOSED TO BE SWEET?

I dare to say that I've kinda destroyed that woman (which I can't be bothered now), but on the other hand, he destroyed me completely. Not physically, but mentally. Because of this, my mind-set now is somewhat screwed up, sometimes I even think that I'm having split-personalities or something. I start to lose my self-esteem, my morale, my confidence & everything just because I FEAR. I fear that history would repeat itself if we are together again, I fear my next relationship would end up in the same fucking way, I fear of this, I fear of that. Yes, I'm like living in fear and torturing myself every single day. Things that I shouldn't be doing are becoming my habits, because I'm too used to it now. No, I shall not say what are the things I did because it's not glam at all & I don't want people to judge me. 

I just think I'm starting to lose myself & I can't help it.

For now, I just want to be single with no strings attached to anyone. Play, flirt, do whatever I want to do, as long as it's legal. Wait till I've learned to trust a person, then I'll learn to love again. 


If not, I will die single.